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aft tt went coro wif dor cos i had to take foto for grad cert. erm ya den had fries for dinner.
den i went to waterfront alone. yeah juz sat there. n started cryin lo. sum funny old guy kept looking at me ya cos i was crying. but wdv la. sat there till arnd 8. it was quiet. dark. couples everywhere. sound of the waves against the rocks.. esp aft the boats go past. the beauty of nature. trees full of bougainvilleas. full bloom. pink n green all over. bougainvilleas scattered all over the ground. bougainvilleas in the wind as the wind blows. beautiful.
anw im supp to feel better. but i dun. anw chocolates make me happy. i was eating a chocolate fudge cookie. erm oops not supp to cos im having a bad cough. n not supp to b eating anything heaty at all la. but wdv. anw i din realli feel much happier. but i think it does make me happy. so haiya nvm.
n thanks to ben. thanks for being here for me all this while. as in mayb not in person.. but thanks for ur concern, advice, nagging n chatting. yeah even though i dun realli noe u n hafnt met u b4.. thanks a lot for always being there for me. i apreciate it.
n thanks to dorothy n junhong. n erm zhixiong even though he isnt of much help.
as i was stoning n looking at the waves.. i was thinking tt im now like swimming hard against the waves.. but not getting anywhere. tts wad im doing. trying hard n even harder.. but not getting anywhere ahead.. but instead im tiring myself out. the feeling sux ok. but if i juz let go n give up n get washed away by the waves it's terrible too. so now i pray tt the waves wld calm down. cos tts the only way out now. if not, i wld realli hafta give up.. cos i cant afford a break down now.
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